A part of me didnt really want to write that last paragraph, but its true... and if you remember one of my new years resolutions was to make our blog a little more honest and intense. And even though I think its a crazy time for us to actually be having a baby... the few moments in the day when food is not creeping up my throat and i hear a david crowder or chris tomlin song and the sun is warming on my skin and the Lord provides a me a breath of fresh air... i am utterly grateful for this baby growing in my tummy that He has created and that He is forming to serve a purpose. I am left in awe that the Lord has chosen us to have this baby and to have him/her now and that the Lord trust us to be the parents of this baby. I am so excited to be a mom. I am so thankful that I can put my hope in Jesus, instead of doctors, books, medicine, blogs, statistics, genetics... I dont know how people do it. I dont know how people function when they put their hope in man, because I assure you man will fail you, man will let you down, man will lie to you and man will disappoint you. I like trusting in God, because honestly nothing else really makes much sense, so I might as well.
So today, I'm 12 weeks! I got to hear the heartbeat yesterday and my doctor gave me some more medicine for my vomiting and I had a lot of people pray for my sickness specifically yesterday and believe it or not I havent thrown up once today. I'm hoping life stays this way, because if I start throwing up again, I will have to get some sort of pump connected to me to give me medicine all day consistently...this is not an option i want to have to take. So prayers are needed! I only lost 3 pounds which isnt that bad considering Ive been throwing up 5-7 times a day for the past 6 weeks, some days more than others, but chocolate chip cookies and vanilla ice cream have been my go to meal (if that counts as a meal) so i'm getting calories there. =) My doctor was not concern about my poor eating habits and told me to eat whatever I can keep down, which is great because I love ice cream (who doesnt?) and chocolate chip cookies are my absolute favorite. The heartbeat was around 165 which now makes me think it could be a girl... (high heart beat means girl, below 140 usually means boy...this is not medically correct), however the chinese calendar says its a boy and I hear thats usually right. =) As of today www.babycenter.com says the baby is the size of a lime!! thats pretty big huh?! ahhh my little lime =)